Getting Softer

I've been working with my own business coach recently and she looked at me the other day and told me that it was time for me to step out of the Kali (the goddess of death and destruction who makes room for change to take place) energy and step into the midwife I truly am.  That comment really struck me. 

It's true that I am someone who has always helped people through change.  It's what I do - it's who I am.  But my coach is right, I have always approached it from a more aggressive perspective.  A midwife doesn't push.  She will occasionally encourage the mother to do so, but she herself is simply a coach to get the mother through the process and a safety to take care of emergencies if things go seriously awry.

But how does one step into this energy?  How do I get... softer?  I've been sitting with this concept for a couple of weeks now.  It has followed me on my journies into my personal growth work.  It has haunted me in my day-to-day activities.  I have been practicing stepping into this energy; and, as much as I can feel that it is more truly who I am, it is also alien to my comfort zone.  But I am practicing.

I have also been looking at the ways in which I have not been trusting in the universe around me.  Perhaps you know this, perhaps you don't, but a few years ago I went on a spiritual pilgrimage.  I gave away everything I owned and stepped out in faith that I would be provided for.  I spent six months on the road staying with the people I was drawn to meet along the way.  I have never felt so safe in my life. 

A few years before that, I got divorced.  After years of agonizing over the decision, I had finally made it and was waking up every morning in such gratitude for my life that I walked around every day saying "I love my life!"  I have never felt more in the flow of things than I did then.

I remember the feelings I had when I was in those spaces years ago.  I know that it is time to take those spaces I remember and marry them with the kindler, gentler me.  I am sitting here trying to figure out how to accomplish that task within myself, but also how to bring that shift into my business.  Now that I have finally stepped into that moment where I am truly sharing myself and what I have to offer to my clients, how do I share this change with you as well?

My best guess is to share my journey.  To let you in behind the curtain.  To tell you what is going on with me.  So, here's the plan.  I will be changing some of the ways I do business.  You will see this reflected in my marketing, my website, and my writings.  I have no idea what form this will take.  I haven't even figured out how to be this person I am trying to become.  But I am working on it.  And as I discover her, so will you. 

Thanks for taking the journey with me.